I felt the sun. near my eyes
the tears were so cold, i never knew i could cry
i felt your warmth, as it fades away
i heard voices and laughter behind, as i lay on the sand
staring at the sky, it means nothing anymore
i woke, dreaming i could reach the sun
but i always have been dreaming
i sold my soul just to be with someone
well, that person doesn't even know i exist.
what the ---- am i doing here anyways?
i stared down myself, feeling more LOST
i felt the sun, near my eyes
no one seems to notice me, because i let go of happiness.
took those pills, took those liquids, took the money.
i rode the bus, just believing i could save myself
i felt strangers staring back at me, but i don't mind at all.
looking outside my window, i watched children fall behind their mother.
"this scene looks familiar..." i thought
stole money from my father, cussed out my mother, pushed my sister away.
left my family and friends behind.
but who are my friends?
i remembered that i cried. i didn't know why. why should i?
went down the city, went down the beach, went down to the water.
i felt it, so COLD and it BURNS. i felt no one else. but the water.
"it's time to say goodbye, it's time to wake up again". the water whispered to me.
"it's going to rain again."
whould i reach the sun? would i ever reach you?
today... i swam to the sun, i swam to the sea, i swam to reach you.
just to see you. just to hear you.