I still dream of you…I long for you again.
In such a short time I turn myself into a monster.
Someone afraid of the being alone in darkness yet my mind only consists of darkness,
I’ve had many lights fade before you...yet yours lit my world completely.
I’ve never felt a love so powerful.
I’ve never felt a heart so pure.
I’ve never felt a pain so strong.
My heart is shattered and broken on the floor.
I am so afraid to pick up the pieces and rebuild to let someone else in.
I’m afraid of this pain.
I drown myself in madness and insanity
I’m lost without you
I’ve never felt something so cutting that it breaks me inside
When I felt alone I’d bring myself to you…a world where my heart was safe .
Now when I feel alone I have no where to go
I need to feel safe again to help me make it through these nights
You gave me my strength to face these nights alone
I feel deprived of the answers that I think I deserve from you
Answers only you can give to me
Answers I feel have not yet been justified by your words
I feel lost in a place I once knew to be warm now cold as ice.
If you love me still then why chase after her
Why cut me so deeply
Why burn me with my own fire
I chose you for a reason I cannot explain
I lost you with no change to change the things that hurt me so much
I cannot get through to you because I am afraid of pushing you away from me
I cannot let go because I am afraid to feel the pain of another light gone dim